"Let's take a picture!"
"OK! Cheeeeeeeeese!"
"Hmm... is this how you take a picture...?"

It's really easy for me to forget about this blog. OTL I try, I try.

Sometimes I see this baby in a stroller on my way to work in the mornings. She has the prettiest face ever and you just want to squish her. (And I hate babies/toddlers/etc too...ahhh) Sometimes, it just makes me so relax and calm seeing an innocent child's sincere smile. It's like. So pure, and untainted by this world. Something I will never have again.

Ahhh... my patience ran out while drawing this, so this is sloppy and will likely remain like this. I really want to update Y.net though. Argh hands, draw something nice!!!!!!

It's been a long day. I'm tired. Lots of things added up together. I had a bad and horribly long day. Sometimes I don't think I can live up to the expectations life give me, or the ones my chosen path give me, or the ones I give myself. I don't know what to do with myself sometimes. I just want to do well in what I do, and that is becoming increasingly difficult. (Even drawing, as this thing clearly illustrates.) Now I understand why adults always told me to cherish childhood while it lasted. It's not that childhood was particularly sparkly or super happy fun, it's just... a lot better. Things were simpler back then, I didn't have to think as much, I didn't have as many things to consider each time I made a decision, I didn't have as many responsibilities, and most of all I didn't care about anything most of the time.

Now the depressing news is that it only gets worse from here.

I think I'm just having a bad & moody day. I just need to get a good night's sleep, have a nice talk with chanchan, and get on with life. So, I'll start with the sleeping part...

Please have a seat in her heart! She's a nice alien! People from her planet don't stick their middle fingers at other people ahahahahhaha.

lol I dunno drawing is hard man

I feel very in touch with my heritage lately, possibly due to all these people who keep asking me, "Are you Korean?" The answer is, I'm actually half. : |

( But here's some old photography works and the full Haruhi pic! )

P.S. the heritage part was a joke, if you didn't catch that.

Because I ALWAYS forget to post about this: Fuuchi Fighters!

A team made up of myself and 509am, currently we're scanlating Ueda Miwa's (mangaka of Peach Girl) latest shoujo manga Papillon - Hana to Chou -. If you're interested you should check it out. :)

( sketch dump )

Well, in response to the k-pop uproar lately involving the new Super Junior MV "Don't Don", I uh... feel slightly weird using this icon. But I'm using it anyway because it looks so cool. D: I don't listen to Suju and I honestly only watched the MV to check out the violin boy Henry Lau. I have to say, I totally did NOT see this coming when I saw him perform at the nightmarket last summer in 2006. I did not think this boy dressed in white, moonwalking to his (very good, might I add) violin playing, about 5 feet away from me, would a year later be signed with SM in Korea and on stage with DBSK?! (No, the point here is Hero in DBSK.) Even my parents, who have no 音乐细胞 whatsoever, said their favourite performance that night was Henry's. This is so weird. Too weird for me to fangirl over him. I'm sure if he hadn't been from Toronto, if I hadn't seen him perform before he debuted as a celebrity, I would be all sorts of OMGs right now. And it's not like I personally knew him, compared to some people on my flist (ahem XD), but SM in Korea sounds so far, yet A.Y. Jackson in Toronto is SO FREAKING CLOSE IT'S CREEPY?!

Anyway. I'm now convinced the 6-people degrees theory is absolutely true. So I've discovered my link to Jaejoong, HOW ABOUT SE7EN?! LOL -shot multiple times-

I've been working here since May. Everyday, when my bus reaches this bus stop, I see this old Asian lady sitting by the garbage can at the bus stop. She wears the same thing everyday, her face is full of wrinkles and dirt, as if the whole world's sadness were written on her face. She sits with some plastic bags from the Chinese grocery store across the street, albeit ripped. They look like they're full of stuff, but you can't really tell what the "stuff" are. Sometimes she eats miscellaneous things I can't distinguish, sometimes she just sits there. People and vehicles pass her by, and she just sits at that same spot.

Once on a weekend, I was doing a late grocery shopping with mom. We passed by that bus stop, and I saw her again. It was a Saturday, around 5 pm. I stopped listening to my iPod and turned to look at her as our car passed her by. She sat in the same spot, with the same clothes, and same bags. For some reason it didn't occur to me that she'd be there on the weekend too. Weekends are people's days off, people don't work. Yet she was at the same spot I see her from on my way to work every weekday. What, did I think that being there was her job or something?

Mom asked me what I was looking at, and I said "Nothing." Few hours passed, and we drove by the same spot with our newly purchased food for the coming week. I saw a dark static shadow by the same chair. I was taken in by the image. That was the first time I've seen her at night. Obviously, she spends her nights there too.

I remained silent for the rest of the car ride home, and I didn't realize I forgot to turn my iPod back on with the earphones still in my ears this whole time.

I give up. *_* Hahaha... what was I thinking. I need to copy another 200 photos worth of realism practice before I do something ambitious like this. I realized I know nothing about facial proportions. Depressing stuff.

Please don't say it looks like Squall Leonhart without the scar, it will make me cry. TAT;;

lol i want to kill myself right now

lol I wonder if it's obvious who's under the cut with that tag.

( WIPs and such )

I am officially through with detailed CGing lol. Nope. Just can't do it anymore. Not that the stuff I did before were extremely gorgeous anyway, but now I can't even shade skin beyond filling in the base colour. lololol it's okay, I kinda wanted to try other things anyway. Bitter? Not at all.

( fear my headshots lol )

Here is my AN "report"... a week after AN. Hahahhaha. No pictures this year lol. :|

( AN2007 )

Other things to address? Hmm... ah, the so called "Strikethrough 07"... to be honest it didn't affect me at all so I can't say I cared all that much. But I'm glad it's in the process of getting "fixed". What made me lol the most is how it made to several news articles on the Internet. Never knew I could turn to LJ for drama too? lol.

And I REALLY need to update Yukizora.net. It is now freaking summer and the top pic is still snowing lol. Conclusion? DID NOTHING IN SPRING.

Inspire me to draw again.

And I'll draw a request from you.

Very misleading (and old) pic.
I just wanted to post here after a month+ inactivity saying:

Finals are officially eating my soul, sanity, and sleep away piece by piece. Y___Y;;

Physics in 4 hours. I'm so screwed.
... 실발 >__>

让所有的希望、期望、渴望一瞬间消失。


I thought I would actually draw at least one picture in the month of February... alas, I did not. I tried about twice though. (V-day and CNY)

Happy Birthday (again) loveholique my love!!! :D!!

First post of 2007! Last pic I drew in 2006.. was thinking about the past lol. My (winter) uniform in elementary school, complete with the 红领巾 and 小队长 badge too. Hahahaha. My hair didn't look that nice though, was more guyish lol... Anyway.

( first drawing of 2007 )

School was cancelled today because of a snowstorm!! That's not even the best part. The best part is... there is no snowstorm... LOL. Sure there is snow, but it's not even snowing (hasn't been snowing since morning either) and the snow on the ground isn't even ridiculously high or anything. Buuut I'm not complaining! 8D (Arrr so many phone calls and calling this morning though I woke up at normal class time anyway, boo. >__<)

I'VE BEEN WATCHING HANA YORI DANGO 2~~~~~~~ HANAZAWA RUI ♥♥!!!! I actually think Soujirou looks really hot in HYD2 too ( and more fangirling here [spoiler free] )

Happy New Year! Approximately 2 more hours left of 2006 for me. XD Sloppy "CG" and all, it was harder to do than you'd imagine. But I'll spare you the details on my neverending art block woes. XD

( 2006 and 2007 )

Edit: Updated Yukizora.net! Wow starting off the year productive? .. Yeah right. XD

Went home this past weekend and brought tablet back with me!!! <3!! (With a shitload of other things too XD)

I told my dad "My domain's gonna die tomorrow..." he was all "Okay" and gave me his credit card ... WITH A SMILE O_O If this is what happens everytime I come back home after 2 weeks...OH MAN HAPPY 2 YEARS BDAY TO YUKIZORA.NET... in 2 days XD;; Probably won't post that day (damn assignments) So hostees you guys are safe for another year~~~ Also speaking of hostees, I got a new one! XD I am now hosting strawbarry_gurl's art site 8D

Yeah um I intended to draw Yukiko but now it doesn't really look like her. In fact I was webcaming with ying_wen and she thought it was Neji LOL ;;;;;;; AND WHY YES, THAT IS ME TRYING TO DRAW SNOW AND COLD STUFF. DX Did I really remind people of winter with my art before? ;;;;;;;

Yeah uhhh Algebra homework kthxbi.

GOOD NEWS!

MY TABLET PEN IS FOUND!!!

*sparkle sparkle* Apparently it was... next to the computer on my desk... good job mom...

Bad news: DOMAIN EXPIRES THIS COMING MONDAY. I have plans to renew it, but all depends on whether I can go back home this weekend and whether or not my parents will be in a good mood when I ask... where is my cheque?! >___<

For the rest of this week my classes all start at 12:30 PM :D!! Free food today was pretty nice. But anyway the drawing. Uh. Drawn a long time ago... apparently in July of this year, but I felt like I drew this last year. (Edit: OH! Yeah I did draw this last year. I finally finished it this July... >_>...) Girl on left with wicked outfit is Esma, barlee's original character. Girl on right with long hair is Yukiko, my character. It's inked but I don't remember where that version is... um. >_>;; It's gigantic though, I didn't attempt to CG this on my old desktop. 2000 px by 3000 px with just the lineart? I think my original plan with background included was 4000 px by something... uh yeah. ;;; Don't think this'll ever be done though! -should be doing homework-

Uhhh so I'm on my mission to post all my old art that I haven't posted before.... not. Soon I'm gonna have nothing to post in this journal with.

I just came back from my first lecture in university, even though it was supposed to be a "tutorial". I was debating whether to go or not coz how can you have a tutorial before a lecture, thank god I went...

It was boring. D: I was this close of falling asleep. Maybe it's the prof and his accent (I didn't even catch his name lawlz), but yeah it wasn't very interesting. Hopefully afternoon classes will be better. Ew Physics.. and the REAL Programming lecture, and Calculus... and Chemistry...... I had a talk with this girl on my floor in the washroom, and she was telling me her schedule and I freaking felt like an alien. I have... how many hours of class each week?! 30? 40? She has 12!! 12!!!! She only has two classes today while I have 5! Somebody stop me before I keel myself. D: Engineering boooooo!!

On the other hand I've discovered I haven't drawn in way too long and I've forgotten how. AND I LOST MY TABLET PEN!! AHH!! I HATE MOVING.

Yes, life isn't that great right now.